d-u-n. done.

Guess who just finished her first non dual enrollment college classes. Oh yeah this girl. Be proud folks I am. Although there was nothing to challenging about my classes, I am proud. Also I did something that hasn't happened in 3 years. Actually finished  a class, it feels great!

Also I miss my baby. He is in AZ being cute there. I just wish I could squeeze him. One more day...

I still haven't completely decided about my hair. That might be why I have a headache, or finals, or cause I haven't had a DP today.

I have been thinking about Dr. Pepper. It may be the fact that I am pregnant. With Rush I probably averaged 44 oz of the that wonderful drink a day. I just want it more then I want water. (oops) It's a good thing Circle K isn't smart enough to put one in Kirtland. I could probably keep it in business alone.

I hope those who are taking finals have a successful week, and those who are starting their Holiday Season, give me a whoop whoop cause I am joining ya!

Over thinking it.

So let me take you on a journey I call my hair.

Growing up I had thick beautiful hair. So the pictures say. One time I cut layers in in it. I was pretty young... and I lost maybe like 2 inches max off the length. I thought the world was going to end. But guess what.. It grew back. Then a couple years later I chopped it. I thought it was really cute. And it might have been, but it's hard to be cute with glasses and brasses and 7th grade and short hair. ya hear? well then made a LONG term commitment with my hair. Never cut it. Let it get split end-y and thin, and put it in a pony tail... a lot. Then I got married and I decided I needed a healthy trim so that meant cutting off 5 inches. Not so devastating, and guess what it grew back. Then I decided to get a little crazy a few months back and cut it like this.

 I was scared to go shorter but wanted it to be "short" cause I had had the itch to do a pixie-type cut. But now I have pixie pox (haha get it?) anyway I want to cut it similar to this...

I have done my research about growing it out, and the pros and cons. Who knew there were blogs about it. Anyway my biggest con I found was the Beiber stage. Although I love him, I don't think his hair would look good on me. So should I do my hair similar to this and it kinda skips the the 'Beiber stage' cause it is actually in the beiber stage. Wow see over thinking. Ladies I need hair advice. lay it on me. I need opinions.

















On a non celebrity note, this is one of my facebook friends and I am completely in love with it! what say you? (don't worry I asked if I could be creepy and put her cute face on my blog)

bawl baby

I cry thinking about crying. I cry watching TV at least once a day. I cry reading a book when the meanest of men die. (almost uncontrollably. he did start to turn nice right before he did. thats my justification) I cry reading quotes. I cry thinking about General conference. I cry when I am tired. I cry when I am happy. I cry alot.

Just know this. don't make me feel any emotion or else I will cry. 

My your day be filled with no tears.

Googly moogly

I enjoy popcorn and m&ms like every night.

Last week I exercised 3 days. (i started on Wednesday so I'd say that's pretty good) I haven't started this week. ha maybe tomorrow.

We got home from our weekend away and the child is clingy. I don't know why. He might miss his grandma.

I loved watching Jordan and Aubry play their sports. They both are awesome.

I sometimes wish I could get a break from my mind. It just goes 100 mph all the time. Garsh.

Oh this is exciting. I sometimes often look at house plans. I have found the perfect one. I have even fantasized 7 2(it has to be 7 actually cause the kitchen is big and what is the use of a big kitchen it you don't have a lot of people to cook for. Maybe I could just have parties) kids running into the kitchen for breakfast. and and indoor football game, and a summer porch sit. It is perfect. Did i already say that? Hmm.

I like coming home to the trailer. Its because its ours. I am pretty sure I would like it just as much if it was in AZ.

I hope you all have a great week. Feel free to blog so I have something entertaining to read this week.

XOXO

Just a little personal.

I don't hold much back on this blog-diggity. Today wont be much different.

I think I have been depressed. I was becoming even more of a hermit then I already was, and I thought I was practically worthless. I felt I wasn't being a good momma and wifey. Tuesday night I had a break down. A major break down. I can't even begin to describe it. Anyway I asked Jord for a blessing, and he gave me the sweetest blessing. He said "you are a daughter of heavenly father, he loves you, and it makes him sad when you don't see the worth of yourself".

It was the perfect blessing with exactly what I needed to hear. I knew it I just needed reminded. Since then I have been a whole new woman. A happy, confident, and energetic woman. I didn't realize how bad I was until I have seen how happy I am now.

Like I said super personal, but I was such a good experience I had to share. In the last week I have accomplished more, and been happier with myself, and my job as a mom and wife I can't even describe.

It is much easier to be happy then to be sad. Have a good week. I know I will!

Just like that.

This morning while I was showering, I was thinking about my life (I think well in that place). I was thinking about the last three years. If you would have asked me where I saw my self as I was graduating High School I would have said.. I will play 2 years of volleyball, lack one year in nursing school, and probably be married. I always wanted to get married soon. And I did. But I didn't play volleyball and I am definately not 1 year away from being a nurse.

In high school it was never a question whether or not I would go to college. I wanted to! Then excuses were made, and I let too many things get in the way. Classes were dropped, and in the last three years I have accomplished nothing school wise.

But even though I am slow at accomplishing my goal, I am doing it! I know I have been talking about it for a long time, but after my first class today I felt proud of myself! I feel this time, a determination that has been lacking in previous years. I am determined to get good grades so hopefully I can get into the nursing program a year from now. It's going to be hard juggling being a mom, wife, and student but I am not the first to try, and I know that with the help of my awesome boys I can do it! I think I have found a little confidence in myself!

Before and after school. :)

Seriously?

is it only tuesday? I could have sworn It was at least thursday. Yesterday on the news one of the reporters said I hope you all had a good weekend. I thought what an odd thing to say on a .... then I realized it was Monday. (PS I have a lot to ramble about today. don't judge me.)

Anyway, can I tell you how deeply I miss my little brother. With the pregnant hormones and all I cry every time I read his letters. They are so good, and I can't believe my baby brother is doing such a hard thing. He says he is just a little homesick, and that makes me cry because I want it to be the easiest thing for him (not the reason you go on missions of course... but you understand)

Today I dropped Kamy off at Kindergarten also not ok with me. If I act like this with my siblings imagine my kids?! She doesn't like school too much and to go and drop her off makes me sad. I watched her walk to the playground and stand outside because she didn't have friends. I drove away and I saw her little hand barely wave from her folded arms.... Tears of course.

I also went and had lunch with 4 of my friends from high school. 3 of us are married, one has 2 kids, another is going on a mission, and another is waiting for a missionary. It was good to catch up and see that we were talking about babies, and marriage instead of sports and high school boys.

My little boy is kicking like crazy. Butterflies are gone, and the full on boxing match with my uterus is on. I love it though. and I love that Rush man so much already.

I am having self esteem issues. I tell you this not to encourage, just to let me complain. The family tried to give me a pep talk sunday at dinner. It's now tuesday and obviously I am not over it. oh well. I don't get why it's a thing I have to fix often. Maybe I need to find something to do that will make me fee good about myself.

Cutest thing. Jord said since I am pretty much the best (he has good self esteem) you should figure out what you want for a baby crib, and I will make it. I don't know how it would turn out, but I think its a good idea don't you?

Last but not least the other day Jord told me he had a surprise for me. I had figured a package I had been waiting for had finally come in the mail... But I was wrong. he went to a house where they left their 'junk', and my thoughtful husband brought it to me. I am excited. I already know what I will be doing with the side table and coffee table, as well as the old cabinet doors!




Much Love. I hope the rest of the week speeds right by me.

I just can't get over him

So two reasons why I am posting again about Valentines.

Reason 1: I did a goofy post for Jord before and now I have to show you how cute he is.

Reason 2: From the time I got home from work to the time we went to be was probably the best 7-8 hours I've had in a long time.

Okay yesterdays run down went like this. I woke up to go to work left him his little treat that I got him with a note telling him how madly in love I am with him. Fast forward. I get home and our floor and bed are covered in hearts! (he cut them out so nicely) And he bought me some flowers and m&m's and DARK dove chocolate. It was perfect.

I also have to tell you about the note he left for me. If you were at our luncheon you will think this is extra funny:) it goes like this:
Our love is like a flock of doves
with a dark cloud above them.
The air smells like sweet flowers boughten at safeway
you mean the world to me.
I want to spend my eternity
snuggling More & More with you
if i could describe the perfect girl
i would have to use the letters
T.I.F.F.A.N.Y (that spells your name)
Tiff, you are the light of my world (with a light bulb drawn next to it)
you're my Umbrella (yes with a picture) on a rainy day
Sorry every time i kneel and pray
i thank the lord for blessing me with such a great wife, whose dad's hair is gray.
(I didn't say that ok?)
I'm so glad we have the gospel to share,
because forever families is such a great blessing to bare.
I love you more then life it's self
and yes you are as cute as an elf.
I don't know where i would be without you
I don't even want to think of that life so blue.
Thanks so much for marrying me,
our family and happiness i look forward to see
I love you soooo much Tiff
Love always and forever,
Your hubby dubby, T Jordan Tenney

This is exactly how he wrote it. and if you will notice the bold words/letters that what he got me as a gift:)
{go ahead tell me how fun and cute he is}

Then he had to go to class.. BOO but it was part of the plan cause I planned a romantical homemade dinner for the both of us!


He had some twice baked potatoes, chicken fried STEAK, and broccoli, and salad, and the drink was frozen punch :) YUM. It was most of jord's favs.

We both fibbed to each other to make the surprise even better. We both are cheesy and hopeless romantics.

I seriously fall more in love with him every day. He is perfect for me.