Hi-ya

Well guess what. We are still homeless. On a side not living with the Tenney's has been rather enjoyable. To be honest it has gone far better then I thought it would. (it's just time ya know?) Friday is supposed to be the big day for sure this time. I even have stuff transffered into our name! This whole situation leads me to my rant today. Bare with me.

The first of January marked week 2 of sickness with the Tenneys. It was also about week 3 of deciding to move back to AZ. My go to saying was I can't wait for January to be over. I was ready for sickness to be gone, emergency move to be over, and to be back into 'life'. Well the only thing that Feburary has not stole from January was sickness, and guess what I have been wishing half the month that Feruary would just get over. The other day I was stressed to the max. I don't know if I don't handle it well so I seem to make it worse, or I had real cause to stress. Getting the house stuff set up, insurance in AZ, work (this is easy but still I can count it right?) taxes done, class, and financial aid has been a little overwhelming. I just new that if I could wish February away this would all be over. Then I started thinking about what every married couple has said to us. You will look back on the time in your life as some of the most joyous times in your life. And all be darned if they aren't right! Since I have taken on the "come what may and love it attitude" I have gotten so much done. Insurance -check. house stuff- check. good grades in school -check taxes -check and financial aid- almost check. I have also been way happier with our situation. Sure we are poorer then church mice, and have a lot of school left, but we also are experiencing a lot an learning and growing, and livin off love.

 I have also found out something about myself during this process. I love being a mom. I always knew I wanted a family, a big one at that, but I don't remeber a yearning desire to raise children. Until now. I feel that is my calling in life. I find my self sitting in class wishing I was with my baby, which creates conflict that I need to work out, but the love I have for him, as his mother makes me happier. I am so grateful that I get to have that rotten, cute, loving boy in my life.

I hope you all have a good last week of February! I know I will!

Over thinking it.

So let me take you on a journey I call my hair.

Growing up I had thick beautiful hair. So the pictures say. One time I cut layers in in it. I was pretty young... and I lost maybe like 2 inches max off the length. I thought the world was going to end. But guess what.. It grew back. Then a couple years later I chopped it. I thought it was really cute. And it might have been, but it's hard to be cute with glasses and brasses and 7th grade and short hair. ya hear? well then made a LONG term commitment with my hair. Never cut it. Let it get split end-y and thin, and put it in a pony tail... a lot. Then I got married and I decided I needed a healthy trim so that meant cutting off 5 inches. Not so devastating, and guess what it grew back. Then I decided to get a little crazy a few months back and cut it like this.

 I was scared to go shorter but wanted it to be "short" cause I had had the itch to do a pixie-type cut. But now I have pixie pox (haha get it?) anyway I want to cut it similar to this...

I have done my research about growing it out, and the pros and cons. Who knew there were blogs about it. Anyway my biggest con I found was the Beiber stage. Although I love him, I don't think his hair would look good on me. So should I do my hair similar to this and it kinda skips the the 'Beiber stage' cause it is actually in the beiber stage. Wow see over thinking. Ladies I need hair advice. lay it on me. I need opinions.

















On a non celebrity note, this is one of my facebook friends and I am completely in love with it! what say you? (don't worry I asked if I could be creepy and put her cute face on my blog)

Big Day for America

I am sure all you lovely American citizens have voted. While I was voting, I got a little tear in my eye. A tear of pride i think. I am so grateful for this country, and the freedom we enjoy. I won't bore you all with my opinion on your current president but I feel that Mr. Romney is the man for the job. I have been praying hard that we will elect a man who believes in God!

I don't know about all of you, but I will be glued to the TV waiting to see the results!

Happy Election Day, God Bless America!

Googly moogly

I enjoy popcorn and m&ms like every night.

Last week I exercised 3 days. (i started on Wednesday so I'd say that's pretty good) I haven't started this week. ha maybe tomorrow.

We got home from our weekend away and the child is clingy. I don't know why. He might miss his grandma.

I loved watching Jordan and Aubry play their sports. They both are awesome.

I sometimes wish I could get a break from my mind. It just goes 100 mph all the time. Garsh.

Oh this is exciting. I sometimes often look at house plans. I have found the perfect one. I have even fantasized 7 2(it has to be 7 actually cause the kitchen is big and what is the use of a big kitchen it you don't have a lot of people to cook for. Maybe I could just have parties) kids running into the kitchen for breakfast. and and indoor football game, and a summer porch sit. It is perfect. Did i already say that? Hmm.

I like coming home to the trailer. Its because its ours. I am pretty sure I would like it just as much if it was in AZ.

I hope you all have a great week. Feel free to blog so I have something entertaining to read this week.

XOXO

One post.... Lots of things

I don't want to get sick/be sick anymore. I also feel like a could sleep all day, only waking up to eat. Which by the way, is my new favorite past time.

My project list is winding down. Thank goodness, yet I could just keep going. They are just a little too time consuming.

Here are some pictures of my table! I didn't take a picture of the table finished on my phone, so here is what it looked like killed.

 Chairs

 

Finished :) I love the green and black together.

 By the way, no money saved is worth the the value of spray paint. I went and bought some because I couldn't take painting anymore.

I got this cute cradle from Karlee remember? Well yesterday Aunt Kim gave me the idea to cover the bumper that was with it, SO I DID! If herkamer doesn't get here soon I might go crazy.

Nothing to do with projects, just thoughts. Baby Brigham Denhalter passed away two nights ago. I cried. I was praying so hard that that little boy would make it. I was praying so hard that Joe and Chelsea wouldn't have to keep wondering how each day was going to go, but that he would just get better. I hope that I would show the same faith that they have shown. It's times like this that you have to be so grateful for the gospel. Times like this where the saying families are forever means more than anything. I am grateful for a healthy baby, I am grateful for this gospel, I am grateful for eternal families. I am grateful for baby Brigham and how in his short life, even though I never got to meet him, he touched my life.

Happy Thursday.

{six weeks till my due date!}

Seriously?

is it only tuesday? I could have sworn It was at least thursday. Yesterday on the news one of the reporters said I hope you all had a good weekend. I thought what an odd thing to say on a .... then I realized it was Monday. (PS I have a lot to ramble about today. don't judge me.)

Anyway, can I tell you how deeply I miss my little brother. With the pregnant hormones and all I cry every time I read his letters. They are so good, and I can't believe my baby brother is doing such a hard thing. He says he is just a little homesick, and that makes me cry because I want it to be the easiest thing for him (not the reason you go on missions of course... but you understand)

Today I dropped Kamy off at Kindergarten also not ok with me. If I act like this with my siblings imagine my kids?! She doesn't like school too much and to go and drop her off makes me sad. I watched her walk to the playground and stand outside because she didn't have friends. I drove away and I saw her little hand barely wave from her folded arms.... Tears of course.

I also went and had lunch with 4 of my friends from high school. 3 of us are married, one has 2 kids, another is going on a mission, and another is waiting for a missionary. It was good to catch up and see that we were talking about babies, and marriage instead of sports and high school boys.

My little boy is kicking like crazy. Butterflies are gone, and the full on boxing match with my uterus is on. I love it though. and I love that Rush man so much already.

I am having self esteem issues. I tell you this not to encourage, just to let me complain. The family tried to give me a pep talk sunday at dinner. It's now tuesday and obviously I am not over it. oh well. I don't get why it's a thing I have to fix often. Maybe I need to find something to do that will make me fee good about myself.

Cutest thing. Jord said since I am pretty much the best (he has good self esteem) you should figure out what you want for a baby crib, and I will make it. I don't know how it would turn out, but I think its a good idea don't you?

Last but not least the other day Jord told me he had a surprise for me. I had figured a package I had been waiting for had finally come in the mail... But I was wrong. he went to a house where they left their 'junk', and my thoughtful husband brought it to me. I am excited. I already know what I will be doing with the side table and coffee table, as well as the old cabinet doors!




Much Love. I hope the rest of the week speeds right by me.

Some good happenings

Well lets see, what an amazing week/weekend. I had some great lessons taught, let out some good laughs, decided I want to be creative, and decided that i figured 'it' out. Okay so lets start with lessons taught. Patience, this one has been taught a lot. One example I will keep to myself, but know I learned it. Another is work. Work is soooo boring I always get asked 'what are you doing now days?' I reply 'working', they say 'where', I say 'at a Law office, it's boring, and I hate it.' Shame on me. So I decided to be patient.. plus I can do my school work (when that starts) while I'm at work. I need to be more grateful that i have a job. Speaking of GRATEFUL! I am grateful for life... :) What a blessing, and how precious it is. This weekend I was taught several lessons on the importance of "A" life and "THIS" life! Speaking of "this" life, I've had a good testimony builder weekend. Love the church. Love temples. Love Christ. It makes me HAPPY! Speaking of HAPPY, I love laughing and making people laugh. I think I'm funny when I'm around my mom, cause she always laughs at me.




These were done at work when I was bored... I decided that I would put them in the funny part so you all wouldn't think I have suicidal thoughts at work!

I like being silly, and dancing like a ROOSTER in a gas station! :)Speaking of Dancing I decided I'm going to work my rear end off in school... Ha you ask what does dancing have to do with school... Well nothing, except that it increases brain power (so i read on the Internet). Speaking of Internet I have lots of time to play on it while I'm at work! So I have decided to get CREATIVE!!!! You will see other posts of them!! But hear is a sneak peak of one...

Just Some Thoughts

Sometimes I feel like my life is just happening with out me doing anything in it, or about it. I feel like I lose a grasp on my spirituality and get in a 'slump' or I just get behind in things, but then something happens, or I realize what I do have and that i need to use it. So today I am thankful for my Savior. I can't comprehend the sacrifice my Heavenly Father made to let his son come to earth and be treated the way he was all to give us imperfect people a second third fourth etc chance. I'm so grateful that my Savior, Jesus Christ, was willing to make the sacrifice for ME! Sometimes my actions don't show the appreciation, but i truly am thankful for the atonement. I am so grateful that I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. What a blessing to have the only true church in this world. With life being so hard, and the decisions I make, I'm so glad that I have an unchanging example to look to and ask for help. On this day, I truly feel blessed to live where I do, have the eternal family I do, be a part of this true church, and have a strong testimony.

{When life gets to hard to STAND, KNEEL}