Hi-ya

Well guess what. We are still homeless. On a side not living with the Tenney's has been rather enjoyable. To be honest it has gone far better then I thought it would. (it's just time ya know?) Friday is supposed to be the big day for sure this time. I even have stuff transffered into our name! This whole situation leads me to my rant today. Bare with me.

The first of January marked week 2 of sickness with the Tenneys. It was also about week 3 of deciding to move back to AZ. My go to saying was I can't wait for January to be over. I was ready for sickness to be gone, emergency move to be over, and to be back into 'life'. Well the only thing that Feburary has not stole from January was sickness, and guess what I have been wishing half the month that Feruary would just get over. The other day I was stressed to the max. I don't know if I don't handle it well so I seem to make it worse, or I had real cause to stress. Getting the house stuff set up, insurance in AZ, work (this is easy but still I can count it right?) taxes done, class, and financial aid has been a little overwhelming. I just new that if I could wish February away this would all be over. Then I started thinking about what every married couple has said to us. You will look back on the time in your life as some of the most joyous times in your life. And all be darned if they aren't right! Since I have taken on the "come what may and love it attitude" I have gotten so much done. Insurance -check. house stuff- check. good grades in school -check taxes -check and financial aid- almost check. I have also been way happier with our situation. Sure we are poorer then church mice, and have a lot of school left, but we also are experiencing a lot an learning and growing, and livin off love.

 I have also found out something about myself during this process. I love being a mom. I always knew I wanted a family, a big one at that, but I don't remeber a yearning desire to raise children. Until now. I feel that is my calling in life. I find my self sitting in class wishing I was with my baby, which creates conflict that I need to work out, but the love I have for him, as his mother makes me happier. I am so grateful that I get to have that rotten, cute, loving boy in my life.

I hope you all have a good last week of February! I know I will!

Over thinking it.

So let me take you on a journey I call my hair.

Growing up I had thick beautiful hair. So the pictures say. One time I cut layers in in it. I was pretty young... and I lost maybe like 2 inches max off the length. I thought the world was going to end. But guess what.. It grew back. Then a couple years later I chopped it. I thought it was really cute. And it might have been, but it's hard to be cute with glasses and brasses and 7th grade and short hair. ya hear? well then made a LONG term commitment with my hair. Never cut it. Let it get split end-y and thin, and put it in a pony tail... a lot. Then I got married and I decided I needed a healthy trim so that meant cutting off 5 inches. Not so devastating, and guess what it grew back. Then I decided to get a little crazy a few months back and cut it like this.

 I was scared to go shorter but wanted it to be "short" cause I had had the itch to do a pixie-type cut. But now I have pixie pox (haha get it?) anyway I want to cut it similar to this...

I have done my research about growing it out, and the pros and cons. Who knew there were blogs about it. Anyway my biggest con I found was the Beiber stage. Although I love him, I don't think his hair would look good on me. So should I do my hair similar to this and it kinda skips the the 'Beiber stage' cause it is actually in the beiber stage. Wow see over thinking. Ladies I need hair advice. lay it on me. I need opinions.

















On a non celebrity note, this is one of my facebook friends and I am completely in love with it! what say you? (don't worry I asked if I could be creepy and put her cute face on my blog)

Happy November

I think it is some 54 days till Christmas? Can you believe it. I can't, I am super excited for the Holidays. Thanksgiving is going to be wonderful. I can't tell you all the desire I have to stuff my little pie whole with potatoes and homemade noodle gravy. I am drooling thinking about it. Also I get to spend a week home again.

Let me just rant for a bit. By the time we go home for Thanksgiving, it will have been a little over a month since we have seen our families. We are both ready to go visit. Some might think that we are a little ridiculous that we are always going home... but the thing is, we are just living here, it's not home. Lately I have had a really hard time with being here. I am totally not a friend person. I have a hard time going out and making friends. So the effort I have put into making friends has not been reciprocated. I just feel like this isn't home. It's not of course, but I am having a hard time trying to make it our temporary home. Gosh, excuse the bad attitude.

All the more reason to be excited for the holidays so we can spend a lot of time with family.

By the way, sorry all my posts are picture-less but I am having difficulties with the computer. I will get them on soon! :)

Hi there.

We, I mean I, well I guess actually we, bought our first Christmas tree. I say I cause this is like the most important thing to me. Like I am not kidding. I am totally fine with picking up Christmas ornaments for a month and a half (thanksgiving to new years :) thanks mom) because I love Christmas, and you can't have Christmas with out a tree. Right. Yes of course. Anyway It's like a little runt of a tree, but I am proud and I wish I could put it up now. Giddy as a Who ;)


I have big plans for this week. Well mostly just to be superwoman. Ha. kidding. But anyway. I plan on keeping up on my housework, working, and really doing awesome at school. it's a big deal. We are down to 7 weeks left in the semester! I hope my psychology class turns out ok. It's really unbearable. It's like I have to solve a mystery to solve every test/quiz problem. yuck.

Happy week. Jord and I will be celebrating our anniversary tomorrow. We are getting a babysitter (or our landlord) but still first one since we have been here... it's a big deal!

Googly moogly

I enjoy popcorn and m&ms like every night.

Last week I exercised 3 days. (i started on Wednesday so I'd say that's pretty good) I haven't started this week. ha maybe tomorrow.

We got home from our weekend away and the child is clingy. I don't know why. He might miss his grandma.

I loved watching Jordan and Aubry play their sports. They both are awesome.

I sometimes wish I could get a break from my mind. It just goes 100 mph all the time. Garsh.

Oh this is exciting. I sometimes often look at house plans. I have found the perfect one. I have even fantasized 7 2(it has to be 7 actually cause the kitchen is big and what is the use of a big kitchen it you don't have a lot of people to cook for. Maybe I could just have parties) kids running into the kitchen for breakfast. and and indoor football game, and a summer porch sit. It is perfect. Did i already say that? Hmm.

I like coming home to the trailer. Its because its ours. I am pretty sure I would like it just as much if it was in AZ.

I hope you all have a great week. Feel free to blog so I have something entertaining to read this week.

XOXO

Jellapeno

You may not get it. Jellapeno = is translation for Hell in a Jalapeno. Now i am sure you all get it.

Those nasty buggers. The other I day I was making cafe rio for our land lords. I had been busy making stuff, and I put getting ready off till the last second. (Bad decision number 1.)

I was making the ranch. Cut up that cute little green banana looking fire ball (bad decision number 2) and added the rest of the delicious ingredients. I made salsa, rice, and beans after this too.

Anyway it was past time for me to get ready so I ran to throw some make-up on (bad decision number 3) Well i have been using a new foundation so (since i don't get ready that often this was like my 3rd time using it.) anyway I was rubbing it up by my eyes (bad decision number 4) And thats when Jellapeno happened. At first I thought I had just got a little of this new foundation in my eye so i was just going to 'blink' it out. Well it didn't go away and the rest of my face caught fire (figuratively of course) I yelled. Jord rushed in. I doused my face in water. ice. fan. ice. water. fan. cold rag. Anyway just as my face had cooled to a bearable temperature. I put on my 'reading glasses to try and disguise my burnt face. 2 minutes later our company arrived.

Be it known. Jalapeno take much more effort to get off your hands then I had thought. (bad decision number 5)

Ra ra ree

Hello.

 Jord was sick. Rush is sick. I have changed like 100 poopy diapers in the last 2 days.

Beside the point. The hubs and I have decided that we want have a team... Are dilemma is this. we don't want pick the cardinals cause they never win. We don't want to pick a team like the colts cause they win a lot. and we don't want to pick the Steelers cause they are band wagon.And we don't want to pick the Raiders cause they are 'ghetto' Jord says. So we have to pick a team that wins a little, but not too much. And they can't be everyones favorite and they have to have a little underdog to them just not ghetto. picky criteria eh? So once we pick a team I will make shirts and we can pretend we have loved them forever and have football parties and act like we are on a football commercial. I am actually pretty excited.

I need exercise tips. Come on... someones gotta help me. Maybe motivation tips is the best. I cant muster up the courage to do a work out. I want to enjoy like I did back in the good ole high school days. Help a sista out.

have a happy Wednesday lovelies.

pep talk

The last 2 days I have cried a lot.

I have chosen to do homework in bed.

And I didn't do breakfast dishes.

No I am not depressed, I just kinda looks like I am.

On the bright note I get to go spend an hour with the 8 year old scouts..... kidding

I admit

Sometimes when big spiders start dangling from the ceiling, I will let Kamy smash it between two shoes.

I admit to being chicken

Last night I had a dream that was a mix between Rio, Apollo 13, Hunger Games, and I think part of the olympics.

I admit to having out of control dreams

I have this little boy who is perfect in every way. He giggles, and smiles and melts my heart.

I admit I have the cutest baby.

My mind is full of things that need to be done, things I want to do, and things I fantasize about that wont happen.

I admit to being scattered brained.

I also admit to being excited for July. I didn't think this needed an introduction.

Bless you all. I hope I don't find a spider in my bed, or a made up creature in me dreams.

muah

Just a little longer.

I have been meaning to blog. honest.

T is working, I am being a mom, and Rush is being perfect.

I just quit nursing him. I was sad to do so, but I feel like a million bucks! I really feel so much better, and he did such a good job getting used to the bottle. Honestly it's more painful to quit nursing then childbirth. Wellllll with an epidural.

You know I haven't told you all how awesome my husband is. He really is my favorite. Like best friends for life. He is such a good dad! I think this week marks the two year anniversary of our first date. Sure glad I finally agreed ;)

Anyway, I am going to try and blog better, about interesting thing as well.


ps. I kinda miss new mexico.

Pss. I can't wait to go camping.

GTL

Signature Jersey Shore slang. (lets not talk about how I know) But it stands for  Gym Tan Landry. I am not sure where I am going with this but for some reason I am thinking about them all. Lately I have been thinking about how much i used to work out, and how much I don't now. I once heard that you aren't supposed to do sit-ups for 6months after birthing a child... Anyone have thoughts on this? Next is tanning. I want to feel comfortable wearing shorts, and shirts other then t-shirts. I want to be TAN! lastly laundry. I love the smell of it. My lovely husband has been helping me do LOTS of laundry tonight, and our house smells delicious!

Anyway I bought otter pops today and that means summer has officially arrived. I want to buy a new swimsuit and go camping. Today I would randomly get memories of summer. Something about the smell of the greenhouse (i think thats what it was) would make me start thinking of camping and my moms front yard. If you ask me summer is the best season. Bring on softball, cookouts, late night front porch visits, and camping.

P.S. we should be residents of the white mountains by june 1st. Thank you Tay for the job :)

Peace for now.

I thought

I saw a picture of a couple laying on a red rug with blue pillows... I thought to my self "self that would be a neat way to decorate a living room"

So of course I went to the internet and found this picture. Just lovely isn't it. The blue rug was darker, but I think I love this just the same. The red curtains do it for me I think.

Then I continued looking. Remember when white walls were a no no. Well I thought that anyway. I remember going to friends houses and feeling like I was walking into Grandma Greats. Anyway, if you haven't noticed white is so back in. Usually paired with chairs that are so 'modern' looking you would fall out on attempt to sit in them. But lately I have been seeing things more 'country/my style'. For example... This little beauty. I am sure the white couches would last less then two minutes, but doesn't it look so inviting?

 

Sometimes I like to pretend I know what I am talking about when it comes to home decor. Pretend, that's all. But it's fun to pretend. Princess or designer. You pick.

Anyway let me share too much information. Last week I was dilated to a 2. Today I go in for another visit. I am hoping that I am more then a 2 because if not I know I will be one of those people who stay at a two until after their due date.  So keep those fingers crossed.

By the way.... I think we found a house. We had trouble staying in what we wanted to be our budget cause those house came back with reports that said... "I wouldn't live there with a new baby, and being their by yourself." So compromise, and prayer I think we got it. Keeping crossing those toes.

Also Gavin, one of the coolest missionaries I know gets home in less then a week. Next Tuesday at 11:07 (or something like that). This girl can't wait to have Jord meet him. 

Happy hump day.

Seriously?

is it only tuesday? I could have sworn It was at least thursday. Yesterday on the news one of the reporters said I hope you all had a good weekend. I thought what an odd thing to say on a .... then I realized it was Monday. (PS I have a lot to ramble about today. don't judge me.)

Anyway, can I tell you how deeply I miss my little brother. With the pregnant hormones and all I cry every time I read his letters. They are so good, and I can't believe my baby brother is doing such a hard thing. He says he is just a little homesick, and that makes me cry because I want it to be the easiest thing for him (not the reason you go on missions of course... but you understand)

Today I dropped Kamy off at Kindergarten also not ok with me. If I act like this with my siblings imagine my kids?! She doesn't like school too much and to go and drop her off makes me sad. I watched her walk to the playground and stand outside because she didn't have friends. I drove away and I saw her little hand barely wave from her folded arms.... Tears of course.

I also went and had lunch with 4 of my friends from high school. 3 of us are married, one has 2 kids, another is going on a mission, and another is waiting for a missionary. It was good to catch up and see that we were talking about babies, and marriage instead of sports and high school boys.

My little boy is kicking like crazy. Butterflies are gone, and the full on boxing match with my uterus is on. I love it though. and I love that Rush man so much already.

I am having self esteem issues. I tell you this not to encourage, just to let me complain. The family tried to give me a pep talk sunday at dinner. It's now tuesday and obviously I am not over it. oh well. I don't get why it's a thing I have to fix often. Maybe I need to find something to do that will make me fee good about myself.

Cutest thing. Jord said since I am pretty much the best (he has good self esteem) you should figure out what you want for a baby crib, and I will make it. I don't know how it would turn out, but I think its a good idea don't you?

Last but not least the other day Jord told me he had a surprise for me. I had figured a package I had been waiting for had finally come in the mail... But I was wrong. he went to a house where they left their 'junk', and my thoughtful husband brought it to me. I am excited. I already know what I will be doing with the side table and coffee table, as well as the old cabinet doors!




Much Love. I hope the rest of the week speeds right by me.

Someday.

I want to make quilts and hair accessories and other crafty things. (and trick people into buying them) I want to wear cardigans with flowery shirts, pleated pants and pointy high hill shoes every day of the week (it would be even better if they were thrifted.)


If I had the time (which i probably do) and the money (which I might) I would be wearing super cute clothes, and making lots of nifty things.
I might need a lesson in "getting a wild hair and going with it"