Hi-ya

Well guess what. We are still homeless. On a side not living with the Tenney's has been rather enjoyable. To be honest it has gone far better then I thought it would. (it's just time ya know?) Friday is supposed to be the big day for sure this time. I even have stuff transffered into our name! This whole situation leads me to my rant today. Bare with me.

The first of January marked week 2 of sickness with the Tenneys. It was also about week 3 of deciding to move back to AZ. My go to saying was I can't wait for January to be over. I was ready for sickness to be gone, emergency move to be over, and to be back into 'life'. Well the only thing that Feburary has not stole from January was sickness, and guess what I have been wishing half the month that Feruary would just get over. The other day I was stressed to the max. I don't know if I don't handle it well so I seem to make it worse, or I had real cause to stress. Getting the house stuff set up, insurance in AZ, work (this is easy but still I can count it right?) taxes done, class, and financial aid has been a little overwhelming. I just new that if I could wish February away this would all be over. Then I started thinking about what every married couple has said to us. You will look back on the time in your life as some of the most joyous times in your life. And all be darned if they aren't right! Since I have taken on the "come what may and love it attitude" I have gotten so much done. Insurance -check. house stuff- check. good grades in school -check taxes -check and financial aid- almost check. I have also been way happier with our situation. Sure we are poorer then church mice, and have a lot of school left, but we also are experiencing a lot an learning and growing, and livin off love.

 I have also found out something about myself during this process. I love being a mom. I always knew I wanted a family, a big one at that, but I don't remeber a yearning desire to raise children. Until now. I feel that is my calling in life. I find my self sitting in class wishing I was with my baby, which creates conflict that I need to work out, but the love I have for him, as his mother makes me happier. I am so grateful that I get to have that rotten, cute, loving boy in my life.

I hope you all have a good last week of February! I know I will!

Surprise.

So since I haven't blogged in a long time, I figured I would make this one real interesting.

Let's start off with baby 2. As most of you know we got a call on Saturday (a week ago) from my OB. He said he was concerned that our baby might have down syndrome. We cried. We got really scared. We were comforted by family. The next 5 days we decided that we would be so blessed to parents to a special baby. We met with the ultrasound specialist Friday morning. They told us that our baby looked fine, but we still need to rule out some more things like other birth defects and heart defects. We felt like we had more questions then answers, but we feel confident that the lord will bless us in whatever happens. We will keep getting tests for the next month or so and hopefully get more answers. For those who have prayed for us thank you, and thank you for your continued prayers for our sweet baby.

Lets finish with New Mexico. Friday (before the doctors call) we visited Jordan in the hospital. As we left the hospital T said he wanted to be a nurse. After joking around with the idea, T told us he was really serious about it. We prayed and prayed about what to do. The whole week we were left with out answers. Thursday night as we drove to New Mexico for our ultrasound we talked about what to do. We did pros and cons for Nursing and Instrumentation. Long story short, Friday on our way home from New Mexico we both had had feelings that Nursing was what we needed to do. So we plan to uproot our little family in the matter of weeks, and start a whole new life plan.

It has been a crazy week. We have been scared, shocked, confused, and most of all blessed. More then ever I know that my Savior is mindful of us. I know that he is in control of our life. I know that no matter what happens, we are making the right decision and the Lord will continue to bless us.

I hope you all have a Merry Christmas!

Happy November

I think it is some 54 days till Christmas? Can you believe it. I can't, I am super excited for the Holidays. Thanksgiving is going to be wonderful. I can't tell you all the desire I have to stuff my little pie whole with potatoes and homemade noodle gravy. I am drooling thinking about it. Also I get to spend a week home again.

Let me just rant for a bit. By the time we go home for Thanksgiving, it will have been a little over a month since we have seen our families. We are both ready to go visit. Some might think that we are a little ridiculous that we are always going home... but the thing is, we are just living here, it's not home. Lately I have had a really hard time with being here. I am totally not a friend person. I have a hard time going out and making friends. So the effort I have put into making friends has not been reciprocated. I just feel like this isn't home. It's not of course, but I am having a hard time trying to make it our temporary home. Gosh, excuse the bad attitude.

All the more reason to be excited for the holidays so we can spend a lot of time with family.

By the way, sorry all my posts are picture-less but I am having difficulties with the computer. I will get them on soon! :)

Here's a story

One that I think you will find exciting. I have already said this, but I am really bad at keeping secrets. Anyway, a few weeks ago I thought Aunt Flow should have come, she didn't nor will she for 9 months.

Yes lovelies that means we are expecting a little bundle of joy.

Lets rewind. October 6 2012 we were with T's family talking about babies and what not. I was telling them " I won't have 2 babies in diapers! I want to wait for awhile till I can get a little bit of school done. Plus I have an IUD so it won't be a problem waiting" Heavenly Father thought that was funny I would say that cause I was already pregnant. Anyway I got home from my long trip to AZ and kept expecting that time of the month. It didn't happen and little signs of being pregnant kept arising. I was in major denial so I didn't want to take a test. Well after T was super annoyed with me talking about it, and being super emotional he said - That's it we are finding out! I knew what it would say and I sat in the bathroom crying as the answer was confirmed. Not just crying, but bawling. How could this happen. We are so poor. We jut had Rush 9 months ago. I finally felt like my body was getting back to normal. I am supposed to have pretty heavy loads in school until I got accepted (hopefully) in April! I finally had a plan!!! T was wonderful and calmed me so much. He said "This is a blessing, and we don't want to be ungrateful there are people who want babies and can't have them, and next time we want to have a baby we want to be able to!" He is an angel. That whole day I was not excited. I tried, but I couldn't muster up the courage to be. I am now. I am so grateful that we are having another sweet baby.

I just found out, I think I will be due June 26. I have felt pretty good, maybe a little bit more tired, and a little bit more nauseous then last time.

 We keep saying... We are going to have a baby! !

Googly moogly

I enjoy popcorn and m&ms like every night.

Last week I exercised 3 days. (i started on Wednesday so I'd say that's pretty good) I haven't started this week. ha maybe tomorrow.

We got home from our weekend away and the child is clingy. I don't know why. He might miss his grandma.

I loved watching Jordan and Aubry play their sports. They both are awesome.

I sometimes wish I could get a break from my mind. It just goes 100 mph all the time. Garsh.

Oh this is exciting. I sometimes often look at house plans. I have found the perfect one. I have even fantasized 7 2(it has to be 7 actually cause the kitchen is big and what is the use of a big kitchen it you don't have a lot of people to cook for. Maybe I could just have parties) kids running into the kitchen for breakfast. and and indoor football game, and a summer porch sit. It is perfect. Did i already say that? Hmm.

I like coming home to the trailer. Its because its ours. I am pretty sure I would like it just as much if it was in AZ.

I hope you all have a great week. Feel free to blog so I have something entertaining to read this week.

XOXO

Sun.burn

Just in time my white body was exposed to the blazing June sun. I burned. I hope I don't peel. It still won't be enough for me to feel comfortable in my own skin (get it) but maybe me and the seesters and brother will lay our bodies out after we play in the pool turning Mom's backyard into what could look like a cemetery.

New goal = exercise. My plan is by the end of the summer I can ride my bike as long as I want, and be able to flex and my arms actually change shape. Realistic I think.

These last couple days I sure have enjoyed the company of my mother. She has been working so my plans  of a playful summer with her have be diminished a bit. I think we will squeeze as much time in together as we can... or I will try to. She is a riot. :)

Anyway this week I will be busy. Doing whatever my heart desires, and my mom asks me to do. I love being home, and I love being a stay at home mom. Thanks Jordo

Until next Time.

It all started....

October 16, 2010

Ok lets go back to the night before. My mom was ironing my temple clothes, and we started talking about the events that would take place the next day. I was anxious and nervous and excited. I had never asked her to be my escort I just always assumed she would. I asked her if she would, and she answered yes. The next day I woke up so happy. As we drove to the temple my nerves were calmed and I realized how great a blessing I would be receiving. When I saw the cute white haired lady just passed the recommend desk I knew she would be the one to help me through it all, and my eyes began to fill with tears. Sister Shelton is the the sweetest lady I know, she was in my ward, and if I could have picked who helped me, I would have picked her.

One of my favorite parts about the temple was seeing junk for the first time upstairs. It just made it all seem even more right. Well with out too much detail the session was beautiful. And while it may seem odd... after I thought about the clothing and special blessing it all seemed like something I have been doing my whole life.

The celestial room was my favorite. Tears of Joy were present in almost everyone. I had been preparing to enter the house of the Lord and receive my endowments for a long time and standing in the most sacred room with family close by just made it even more rewarding and showed me really how important the temple is.



And sad to say I haven't been back. Maybe I'll go early in the morning.

Welcome to..... SUMMER!!!

Dear Summer,

I have missed you terribly. I'm glad you are back.

Love,

A Summer girl

Yes I know writing letters to things that can't read is weird. But it got my point across. The last weekend (memorial day) we went to the valley to watch Treston graduate (congratulations), and bask in the sun.

Here is the run down. Friday we were in the pool more then we weren't. or close anyway.

Aunt Ann woke us up bright an early to give us a work out from you know where. I was sore days after. You go girl :) then we blah blah blah and went swimming..

This is my sweet dive. I didn't belly flop once. Last summer. Well lets just say it was not

pleasant experience trying to learn how to do this.

This is my adorable sister. She hates me... No matter how much we play she still loves Derek more. But we played so much! Every one played for hours in the Hamberlin, and Bloomfields pool! Basketball, water fights, diving, and sun bathing made for a perfect day. It was a good time

After we did baptisms we snuck over to Lenny's to get a delicious ice cream cone... YUMMY


This is us after baptisms it was so good to be in the temple with all of them! love you all.


but before i go on... I have a story. So as a valley girl I kinda liked this guy. We weren't ever dating in his eyes but pretty much were. Anyway, a few months ago this guy got engaged! May 28 (the day we did baptisms he got married) I figured that if we went late enough in the day we would miss seeing him. Ha on the contrary. It just so happens they are taking pictures. They didn't see us till the photographer had to run over and ask us to move. So the whole wedding party looks. Yeah it was awkward. What are the odds. Of all the times of the day it just so happens that we are there at the same time...
We also added a lot of estrogen to our house this weekend. Jenna and Megan are staying with us this week. I just love these little girls. :) So sweet! Between them, the neighbors and other friends that come to play with them there are a lot of girls running around the house!

This was a highlight. I laid cement and grilled. I think I've got skills. We worked our buns off int he backyard this weekend. We dug weeds, poured cement, moved tarps and mowed lawns. you know, i think that this might be the best part of summer.

Great and productive weekend :) Thanks for the fun Aunt Ann!