2.09.2012

Burn baby Burn

I have been reading old journals.. And I think I will light them on fire. The only time in my life that I kept a daily Journal was when I was at my 'dumbest'. From like the end of my 8th grade year till the summer before I got married I wrote in my Journal every day. They were usually something like:

Woke up went to school/work tanned played volleyball hung out/did homework. Peace

Sometimes they were a little more detailed and I would tell about a fight I had, something spiritual, or just be a little more detailed. Then there were the ones that will be the cause of me burning the 'diary'. You might say just rip out the ones you don't want shared... well that would be 90% of the book and the ones that were left would be one liners.. Lame. Let me explain my Journal.

Every month or so there was a major change to the ending of my entry. I would usually write the peace sign (why i don't know. Guess I figured that was better then signing my name and I didn't know how else to end it. Now that I think about it there is no evidence that this lame book is mine.) Anyway back to the reason my life in words needs to be burnt. After the peace sign I would draw a heart (maybe I like to doodle) and the boy's name I was "in love with". Ok whatever that's fine. I was in high school. But NOOOOOOOOO! 90% of my journal entries say something about missing so and so. I don't know why my mom doesn't like so and so. I got to see so and so today. So and so held my hand. So and so was CONSUMING MY LIFE! I think my face turned read reading them and I was by myself.

I haven't even let Jord read these because if he saw how much I 'loved' all of these boys I think he might question my ability to get over them. Well actually the funny thing is right after I proclaimed my love to so and so #1 the next page (a few entries later) would have so and so #2's name after a little heart. But don't worry I found a pattern that just before I proclaimed my love to the new so and so the entry before I would say something like 

Hmm I think I am starting to like so and so


Now I don't want any future kids, grandkids, or great grandkids reading all that milarky. So do I accidently loose them? The trouble is I still find them amussing I just don't want anyone else to.

Dear blog,
I woke up cleaned fed my baby, and blogged about writing in my journal.
peace
i <3 jordan tenney

Redemption?

3 comments:

k_kbrimhall said...

Don't burn them......hide them. When you die and someone reads them they will find great wisdom in them.....isn't that how it is sopposed to happen. I hate reading mine too. I was never as faithful as you are or were. Write now that you have your little guy and write all the wonderful things about him. I did not do that, shame on me! Now there is nothing. What have I done with my life? There is nothing to read or remember! :( Keep writing! :)

svstuartfam said...

I agree, keep writing! You're so funny! Just think of all the empty pages you have to fill gushing over Jord and Rush! Give that sweet baby a kiss from me! He is soooo cute!

Shea & Yvette Flake said...

Oh yes please keep writing! How I love reading your blog! Don't forget how important the WRITTEN word is! You have such a talent! And don't throw the "teenage" journals away! I agree with Aunt Kim write about your life with T and Rush now and that will be even more redemption! Love you!

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